Trusting God’s Choices for My Life
Growing up, I was a very quiet guy and preferred to keep to myself. My plan was to stay home and get my bachelors degree through a program ran by Siena Heights University where I would be able to take classes at Kellogg Community College and get my bachelors degree. I could stay home, get my bachelors degree, and save a lot of money if I participated in this program. All of a sudden, I had this urge where I desired to meet more new people. I knew I wouldn’t get a great opportunity doing that if I went through with this plan. I talked to my parents about it and they were totally supportive of my decision to look elsewhere. I began looking at different schools and doing research on all of them. Everyone in my area typically goes to Western Michigan University. I, however, felt like that wasn’t where I was supposed to go so I kept looking.
I came across Grand Valley and something just clicked. I toured the campus and afterwards told my parents that this was where I wanted to go. A good friend of mine was planning on going here as well, so I figured that I’d at least know one person. Later on, he backed out at the last second and ended up going to Western. So, I ended up going to Grand Valley not knowing a single person. During my first week at school, a girl that I talked to all summer and went out with ended up getting back together with her ex, which I found out about when he messaged me to stop talking to her. I was heartbroken! It was a really rough start at Grand Valley. I was all on my own and had nobody to help comfort me in any other fashion other than over the phone. I fell into a really bad depression for the entire semester. I never seriously thought about suicide only because I knew God was still there for me. If He wasn’t a part of my life, only He knows what I would’ve done. I questioned God asking, “Why did you bring me here, I have no place being here.”
Winter semester rolled around and I wasn’t looking forward to going back at all. I seriously considered transferring after the winter semester if nothing changed. I went to The Well once fall semester, but I didn’t meet anyone and I was really intimidated by the large crowd. I went to the first Well of winter semester just to give it another shot and I ended up meeting someone this time. I got to sit next to him and talk with him and his friends. He got my number and he texted me every week to see if I was going to The Well. I went every week ever since then. He invited me to even hangout regularly and treated me like a real friend, which is all I wanted since coming here. Later on, he convinced me to go on a spring break mission trip even though I said no multiple times. It ended up being one of the greatest trips I’ve ever been on and I met even more people!
Things just got better and better ever since I started getting involved with Campus Ministry! I didn’t understand why God brought me here, but now I don’t know where I’d be if He didn’t. God doesn’t just forget us or leave us somewhere, He uses us and our experiences to help others who struggle with similar things in their daily lives. My dad just passed away last July out of nowhere and my family and I are having to deal with the struggles of that. I don’t know why God allowed him to pass away this soon, but I can only think that maybe I’m supposed to go through this struggle so I can help somebody else that’s going through the same thing or something similar. I know God loves and cares for me so much and He only wants the best for me! This is why I worship.